For the last few weeks, I have been going to the gym religiously trying to lose weight and tone my stomach up. The C section obviously tore through a lot of muscle and is proving difficult to tone back up. Plus my stretch marks don’t help with my confidence, especially being in a swimming costume 24/7 living in Cyprus.
I had become very low, and wasn’t talking to Matt about it because he always says I am beautiful but it wasn’t what I wanted to hear. I had lost my bubbly self and went to the gym out of anger rather than enjoyment. I didn’t even realise my attitude was noticeable until of course Matt confronted me about it and I burst into tears explaining I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror anymore.
Then I went online and started typing in the normal after birth issues and a lot of women struggle with this. I also found a lot of younger women struggled more just because I haven’t been able to appreciate and enjoy my body for as long. However, speaking to Matt, women online and my health advisor I feel a lot better and beginning to remember it is a slow process getting back to normal. It is a hard journey, but when I look at Maisie and thinking I created that (with Matts help if course), my body is a temple.
I have now booked personal training sessions to try and help me with the toning so wish me luck!